heavy... o so heavy!

i donno y m havin a really bad mood swing today.. i feel so depressed...
i feel guilty...for neglecting our bond...

its almost a year since... nevermind.

i still remember, 19th december 2009... dat was the last day we were together...
it was such a happy day... we even went out for a movie... wid the gang... i got to meet you after suchha long gap ... thanks to a common friend... who was then, your 'best friend'...

it'd been 9yrs since you'd left school... you were my first 'best friend'...n i guess i was the same to u... and all of a sudden ... on this beautiful day.. i thought that you were back in my life ... once again... i was ready to push out all the others and give you that special spot of a best pal once again... i wish i didn't leave the city in march...
i wish i was here all along...
i wish those 9yrs never came in between... i wish we were 12 yr olds again...

You had so much more to do... you had a whole life lying in front of you...
you had so many unfulfilled dreams... you were just a girl... my best girl...
i wish time would turn its tide... and things would be normal again...
it all happened so suddenly... and i wasn't even here... i feel so ashamed of myself...
i am sorry... i wish i cud be a better friend to u... please forgive me...
i silently pray for you every now and then...
and deep down within.. i believe... that wherever you are...you are happy and content...
God Bless...